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It doesn’t matter who gives you the answer. But if it resonates with your thinking if you feel justified and pacified and calmed :-) with certain answers, then u understand that its time to move on.

So i am shaking away the self sympathy mode. Back to my normal sense but with a little bit of innocence lost. To act that everything is fine as before will be an 'act'. But i am sure time will do its part and i will forget why i was hurt.

should i elaborate. it will make good writing... but better i dwell in another topic.

did i write about the turkey trip?

almost one year after the trip i can feel the smile playing on my lips thinking of those turkey days. If u want to feel lost to this world go to Cappadocia/turkey. Take your family too coz that will give you a sense of reality. :-)

the balloon air trip was worth it. truthfully when i was in the balloon i couldn’t feel any thrill it was like you are standing in a bus/plane. but nostalgia adds flavor to everything. such trips are best for creating some good memories. like an ostrich you can drown your thought in those memories and get along happily with this world.

Istanbul had an ethnic beauty. It being early winter the light fell beautifully on everything. ( I understood the importance of light factor recently. Winter is almost here in Kuwait. So during a drive i noticed how beautiful Kuwait looked when sun took a break.) The pathways, the mosque, the tram everything had a holiday mood in them. hmm again as u know it might be my holiday mood reflecting on them...Still one can feel peaceful there. The greenery was excellent unlike the unruly Kerala greens these were modest and manicured. Exquisite palace in beautiful setting, a boat trip with a panoramic view of history and present ,assurance of friends laughter it all adds unto a smile when you think of those days.

I should add that the Turkish people are very proud. now earlier i would have thought how can u know if people are proud/ sensitive etc without association. I have no clue but still u can feel that people/even street hawkers are aware of their proud culture. Pamukale was as beautiful as the pictures. But any beauty when u go near you wonder was it only this much .( may be coz u are from kerala where u live amongst natural beauty )Still its an experience. Next time a photo take you to dream land u wont be swept away. :-).

The walk through the Illhara valley was breathtaking (really). The lunch in middle of those streams, valley and swan all natural makes one thankful. In Cappadocia by 4'o clock its pitch dark that u have to ebb into your room and enjoy the company of human beings. Staying in a cave house ,walking through old shelters five stores’ beneath the floor, touching formations of a erupted volcano a keralite who lives peacefully sheltered from world wars and natural calamities (in extremes) felt stunned.
It took one year to chew all those happiness and reminisce those days and to write it down. Money spent in such trips are worth i feel.