Accident

Its been long since I had an anticipating moment without knowing what will happen next.By now I have a fair picture of all the consequences of my action. Nothing much excites me. Nor does it make me afraid. As one may say I have taken life in its stride.I enjoy and walk along without being excited. When younger everything was exciting. going out ..a evening with friends..a chappal lost...an exam result everything had a huge impact. I enjoy the current phase. Enjoying without being excited. Sometimes I do miss the thrill. Then I pleasantly remind myself I have grown up , matured and feel contend in the thought.

At certain age people excited us so much. especially the opposite sex. their looks, actions, talks we tried to find a meaning for it. then another phase of chasing dreams. then the little ones took over..life..simply thinking ... life...it goes in a predicted way but not the way we predict.

Two days back , our car was hit by another car from back. our car lost control and for few minutes it was exciting. not knowing whats to happen next. will the car stop.will it catch fire. will it turn upside down. how are we going to get hurt. will we survive .will it be painful. those moments brought a prayer on my lips. surprisingly i didn't pray for safety. i just prayed ..for a strength. those moments nothing crossed my mind apart from what will happen next.

From all the chaos that followed after and in between I can separate those few minutes of which I was prepared to face death. I should say I was not afraid. I am surprised that I was not afraid......

Maybe we are most afraid of our near and dear ones life and facing the life without them. (only my frnds were with me in the car no family members)

i do not know...just wondering and recording my first accident.