terrorist attack

simply one has to write..its only way to react i know now..to let out the feeling.
the terrorist attack is the current topic.

jumbled up thoughts mixed with numbeness, helplessness, shame . but fear?? i doubt..coz its no use.

a lost feeling. searching for a hand to guide. looking out for a leader to lead.

a question..? what to do? whats my part?
answer : mould future generation??

it has happened before..it will happen again..we are sure..but changes has happened..single men brought great changes..there is no more slavery..no more sati..india is free.. hitler was killed..so its possible.but someone shuld lead.

then why shuld it be another? why cant I?..NO we are just followers..There are only a few I capable of making us.. is it???

novelty of the operation bother us? we are used to bombings right? but not attacks? we are used to going to market or garden and never coming back right. we are used to sleeping in train and not getting up.

its coz of Taj? Oberon? Yes Taj do matter..like a human being it cannot be reproduced so quickly..

dont take me bad..i am in shock..confused..not sure of anything..


we die in mass in earth quake..in tsunami..heavy rain fall, poverty, sickness..without any reason..on road..on air
so here also death right?? its the same??

no.we die its for sure. but its our right to postpone it. no onehas the rght to force it on us. we are given a chance to live.we want to live it..

so what should i do? have a tea and write? cry ? vent my anger with words? pray??
protect myself with arms?? but that failed in other countries right?? it only leads to more anarchy??

i think i shuld get involved. i shuld get out of living MY life. i shuld know my neighbours. i shuld know WHY the strangers?? i shuldnt say politics..oo not for me..
i shuould make the noise. i shuld train my next generation . a teacher shuld do bit more than earning her salary. a mother shuld stop worrying abt earning more and spending it.. a mother shuld have time for children their thoughts and views. a father not a mere couch potato.. life is not all abt earning and spending.. and revewing..live it fully.

work is not just get our salary..there is more to it.understand it and do ur little part. dont be ashamed to standout coz of ur goodness or uniqueness. slowly they will follow u.BE the one to lead..in a small way. Dont become the generality.Have the courage to be laughed at.dont merely join the laughing monkey.

train ur children to lead..its only them we can mould in this big world apart frm us.
we indians are obsessed with serving..in various ways. and we give the role of leading to the fools ,liars and terrorist. we are not simply bothered..we say we dont have a choice..is it not our duty to provide a choice..we want to be safe in our house..and want others to make it safe for us..they too want the same..

the only people who nowadays act are the terrorist. their life is not worth living ..they kill and get killed simply for a belief..

and we?? we hide????? frm our neighbour ?frm the world? from ourselves.

is it?? i dont know..

like u i too am lost..but even if its a slow battle i hereby will go by the rules..question the simple things i find out of way..bend little strech a arm to give. give my life to save.(will i??)


here in this country i live i see the security measures. everything is checked. everyone is numbered. there is a accountability.India is a large country agreed. but each state is small then the district, the city the village..its been broken down right..frm the small units be alert..there is little the large picture can do.its the small ones that count. come down to deep root and correct.. dont cut the branches..its not enough.take care of the roots. its not easy..but thats where the solution lies.

mabe thats what gandhiji meant long back.

its one our frnds, relatives,our children whose ideas went wrong ,who got greedy who helped the system go wrong..maybe we did wrong in not giving them proper attention..
yes..in a way each one of us is to blamed..dont focus on shifting it.

is it pointless raving..no.its not..being aware of something wrong,identifying it and thinking to correct it..and CORRECTING IT ..is the way. terrorism disnt come all of a sudden. it was everywhere for long time..just it striked near this time. u cannot eradicate it with a few words or action. it takes long time and action..and every single one of us count in the process...in our small ways..

get up . be alert..dont brood..its time for acting..for being aware..for contributing..

half of my life i spend enjoying and watching..let the rest be dedicated to action.


## create leaders .