a thought.

so its been loong ...there was no action which made a reaction that in turn made a post..welcoming the newyear and trying to search something new in my life the days went by and its feb now..then i fell sick . suddenly all those bacterias or germs or anti biotics or the pain..whatever it is made me realise how pleasant all those days were when i was healthy and fit. so i am back in circle appreciating the freshness of each day. thankful for being healthy.

and i am soo happy i saw one of my favrt blogger has added me in her list. first i couldnt believe..then it slowly dawned on me thats its my blog..

so here i am with all the happiness and spirit.

trying to hide my identity is frustrating me. i am not able to blog abt so many things which happens around me and in my life.then i am waiting . ina way its relaxing to blog this way..i am not trying to hide frm the world..just i would like to see the tiny bit small me apart from all the roles i play in day to day life.


these few days when i was silent there was two tiny thoughts going in circle. better to put them down so that i may be free.

one is lack of trust . we now a days or i now a days cannot trust people in a simple manner. when i go to doctor and he prescribes medicine i am not sure whether to have all of them..may be he wrote those medicines just to get a commission.. its weird earlier doctors word was law. we strictly followed it.

when someone phones me twice or is extra good to me all of a sudden..i start doubting his motive. i am sure he need some help from me. and worse..its always true.. so now when some one smile my brain will be racking what help they want...its not that i mind helping out.even if they dont put that extra effort i am happy to help them. but when they come with that offer for frndship and i fall for it just to realise that its for some help..i feel cheated. maybe its their goodmanners or my badmanners..anyway i prefer if someone can plainly ask for things.

( hmmmm but then may be ...may be ..may be.. i too do it that way when i want some thing frm someone???????????? )


ok now the second insight or what i may call striking idea i have developed is this man women thing. why god is always on men side. all the prophets are men. all impt gods are men..and the divine concept god made man first.and most laws favour man ruling and women .
Before i go on let me state ( what was i going to state???) that i am not taking sides.

u know it just striked me that all those stories might be true.god must have made man first. then as u know there will be some silly mistakes when u try it first time... rectified his mistakes and made a better model the women. i know this thought might not be unque still..( i feel i have read it before) my line of thought goes this way..we know how partial we are are to our first borns and always how smart the second one is.. the second ones are born smart..i feel.. we keep on favouring the first one make him the head of family the one to whom the other siblings show bit respect and all.....ok...that way might be god always favour his first creation coz he knows the second version is perfect and dosent need any extra protection.
god knows she is smart enough to take care of her self. he in his wisdom protects his first creation by making all the laws in his favour..

what an idea jiiii

my god promise i wont be back to blog world for a loong time..its hard for even me to read


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